For the first time in about two months he was standing at the doorstep of his apartment that he had gravely missed while he was hospitalized. He stood there for more than half an hour looking at his name engraved at the door because he did not want to enter. He knew that as soon as he will step in to the apartment it will remind him of all the memories that he had been trying to forget to make a new start in his life.
Yet with a very weaken will he opened the lock and entered the apartment, it took him sometime to soak into the environment he had been so very familiar with but now with a very drastic change she was not there anymore in his life, the past one year of his life had been such that he would trade it for anything if he had a chance to do so.
Noah Brookes, a young and energetic owner of a very popular group of companies, was all alone in the midst of a whirlpool of thoughts, emotions and a sore body which was still recovering from the effects of what happened. Slowly and gradually he started to gather things and was putting them away so that he could start a fresh rather than living in the past.
Days passed away one after another but he was not being able to come into grip with the situation. Some accident tends to take a lot out of a person, no matter how well determined he or she is, the affects of the factors leading to that accident actually dashes the hopes and resolute determination of even the strongest of them. Noah was going through this phase as well the breakdowns that he was suffering from where getting regular as he was starting to get back to normal life.
After returning to his normal routine life mostly he used to be lost every now and then which was affecting not only his work but his life in general as well which made him request his doctor to refer him someone who he could meet up for counseling and that led him to Dr. Clair Albert, a young psychotherapist who had made her name over the past couple of years as keen listener and more over a therapist who could heal almost any mournful memories. Noah was reluctant to contact Dr. Clair but eventually when the burden of past got to him he fixed an appointment.
‘Noah Brookes, I have an appointment with Dr. Clair for today at ten am’, he told the young girl who was sitting at the reception.
She looked into the computer that was in front of her to confirm the appointment and looked at him with a smile of her face,
‘Sir, Dr. Clair will see you shortly please have a seat’, then showed him the way to the waiting corner, it took a while for her to return to let him know that it was his turn to meet the therapist.
Noah did not know what made him come to her clinic but one thing he was assured of that when he leaves the office he would have left a lot of his burden behind. The twenty-five steps that he took from where he was waiting till the doctor’s clinic room where by the far the most convincing thing he had done so far after the accident, it felt good about taking each and every one of those twenty-five steps but he did not know what made him enjoy that little journey of his.
When Noah entered the clinical room he saw a very different environment than what he was expecting and that was a pleasant surprise for him and it calmed his nerves a bit too, he sat at the first comfortable chair that he saw and waited anxiously for the Dr. Clair.
‘You seem to be little confused with the kind of purpose you have filled in the forms’, a gentle voice said as a side door opened which took him by surprise.
‘What kind of confusion are you talking about?’ he asked.
‘Mr. Noah do you want to forget about what has happened in the past one year or do you want to keep that as a part of your life and stride forward’, Clair asked as she seated beside Noah.
‘Is there any difference because to me I think striding forward can never be done if you have not forgotten you past’, he answered back sharply.
‘Oh! I forgot I’m Clair Albert by the way nice to know your thoughts’, she said and then turned her attention to a file that had been in her hands when she walked into the room.
After a small pause she again spoke up,
‘Noah, I have been going through what you had written in the forms and what I think is that you need a little time off from this city, your work etc because at times to forget something you have to make little changes and compromises at different levels. Yet counseling can help you this far that is would enable you to lessen some of your burden but changing the environment would be essential in the long run’, she saw that he was listening to her with concentration and that made her realize that it would not be as simple as she thought it would turn out to be.
‘As I was saying Noah these sessions might work out for you but the contribution I want from your part will be of the highest levels’
‘Like what do you want me to do’, he asked her.
‘For starters tell me how you interpret what has happened in the last twelve months of your life’, she asked him with a very purposeful tone.
After a moment of silence he just smiled at her, stood up and took few steps towards the window and said,
‘When you were a child doctor did you have any possession that you always kept besides you where ever you went I mean was there something that you had always kept so close to your heart that if it went away or someone took it you would have fought for it till the very last of your breath’
Clair looked puzzled at what he asked and thought over it for a few moments and then nodded in confirmation, he took that nod as a yes and carried on,
‘How would you have felt in someone had taken it away and you realized that it was gone and it would never return ever again’, he asked with a very determined look on his face to prove something to her.
‘A feeling on despair or despondency to say the least’, she replied.
‘That is how I can relate to the past one year of my life it. It had given me a reason to laugh, live, love and then with one swift blow it gave am all the reasons of hatred’, he stopped when he saw a confused look on her face, smiled at it and then seated back in his chair and explained.
‘Many times Clair there are certain things that one cannot have control over, when love comes into your life it takes away all that once you are proud of and leaves behind nothing but anguish and sorrow that tends to take away inch by inch the very essence of life and that is left behind is nothing more than a few sore memories’.
He slowly stood up got his jacket and then walked slowly towards the door but as he took his steps slowly he realized that Clair was deep into some thoughts. He approached her and put his hand over her shoulder and shook her up,
‘It’s time for me to leave doc see you around on the next appointment but it was nice talking to you’, he said with the usual bright smile on his face. She frantically moved and said,
‘But I’m not done with you yet you have to tell me more’, ignoring what she said it moved towards the door then halted and turned back towards her and said,
‘If I stayed back to tell you more, you will have to pay me then and you can’t afford my fee trust me’, he said it arrogantly but with a smile on his face and that was what Clair realized and both laughed about it for a few seconds and then he walked out and shut the door behind him.